A Love Story (Nine)

by Prabhavathi Jai

With true love in heart,

What You can not do in the world ?

You can perform miracles !

A College Dance Drama

NINE

One day, my Lecturer called me and told,

 " Prabha, you know that our College Day is coming shortly. 

You prepare some dance and song item 

and perform on the stage ". 

I was a student of classical singing and dancing. 

So they gave me the honor to perform on stage

every year.  As a routine, I used to sing and dance.

When I met Jai in the evening I told him,

" I have to sing and  dance for the College Day. 

What should I do? You please tell me."

" We together can dance. Will they allow? "

" Jai , no jokes. I am serious. Please tell me. 

What Should I perform? "

" See, my Prabhavathi is a beautiful fairy.  

You go and stretch your arms and legs on the stage. 

It will be a beautiful dance. 

Also, you have a very sweet voice.  You say something. 

It will be melodious song. "

" Jai, Please tell me."

" OK, OK Prabha, I will try to do something.

you give me some time. 

Now, You sing a song and dance for me. "

" Here?   I can sing but how to dance? "

" You sit and sing.  Make  abhinaya for your  song ."

I recited a classical song and made abhinaya .

" Very Good, It is very beautiful. Will they allow me inside

 your Women's College? "

" I will get permission from my Lecturer.
She will allow you as a special case. "

After two days, he gave me some papers

containing the details of the song

 and the dance sequence for a group dance drama.

It was a question and answer sequence for two groups. 

It was a mixture of both classical and modern dance. 

It appeared totally a different  concept. 

 Even he made some sketches showing

the details of the groups, dresses, 

background scener etc.  

He had taken a lot of efforts in preparing. 

When I explained this to my Lecturer, she readily agreed 

with lot of appreciation.

" But how will you do this? Will somebody  help you? "

" Yes madam, I want permission for the entry for Mr. Jai, 

GCT (Engineering college)  student.  

He will help me with a few of his friends. 

Will you permit him? "

" Yes, I will just inform the Principal.

By the way, do you know Jai? "

" Yes Madam, he is a very good man."

" Very good? "  Madam looked at me

and her smile lasted long!  Why?

It was the previous day to our College Day. 

Jai came to our College with his friends and the materials.

I took him to my Lecturer.
They were talking for a long time. 

Jai explained everything to her.
She was satisfied and happy with

the arrangements explained by Jai.

She told me, " Prabha, you take him to our Auditorium 

and help him.If you want any other help, come to me.

You provide them some snacks and coffee from the canteen.

OK, Jai you go with her.  I will also come
there after finishing my work. "

Jai started his work on the stage with his friends after tea. 

" Thank you Jai for all your efforts." Jai just smiled.
He was sweating profusely.  When nobody was looking at us,
I cleaned his face with the pallu of my sari.
His work continued till lunch time.

We shared the lunch which I specially cooked 

and brought  for him.
He relished the food and was all praise for me.
My sister, Padmini also joined with us.
Just after lunch,  our  rehersal started  

with  our Lecturers, Jai  and his group and limited audience. 

Oh! ...........No words. All due to Jai.

College Day . Our group performed at the end.

During the performance the whole audience

was wonder struck and remained silent.

Jai created his magical effects. 

On the stage-
 The sun shined.

The moon smiled.

The stars twinkled. 
It rained heavily. 

The breeze turned into a heavy storm.
The sea, the jungle, the animals -

all on stage according to the requirement.
We also gave a matching performance in dance.

Beautiful ! wonderful !

At the end, the audience woke up from the dream performance.
Applause.....applause.......applause.
Deafening applause.

We won. Jai was introduced to the audience on the stage

by our Principal with special mention , appreciation and thanks.

While returning home, I gave the Prize to Jai,
" it  is yours." 

Jai pulled me and held  closely and whispered in my ears,

 " No Prabha, you are only mine. Nothing else, I ever want."

" Yes, of course Jai. I will remain ever yours." 
I kissed My Jai. 

We forgot the world momentarily.

Padmini was standing nearby and smiling.
" I will wait outside. Come soon.

Everybody in our home will be anxious " she told me and
waved her hand to Jai, " thank you very much,  Jai ."
Somehow, Padmini liked Jai very much and respected him and
carried very high opinion about him.

" Your sister, Padmini is a very good and nice lady ," Jai told.

" To-day you danced marvelously  gently like a  creeper  in  breeze

and swiftly like  lightning .  Wonderful ! Totally the performance of 

everybody was very good. You excelled everybody . It was beyond my

my expectation. "  Jai told.

" No Jai,  it is all because  of your efforts only, nobody can deny. 

 How much efforts you have put in.  For my simple request, 

 you have taken lot of pains to fulfill. I am very proud of you".

" Prabha, you don't  know how much  I love you.
I like you to be happy always.
I can  give my life for that.
The stage for you is in my heart  ".
Jai escorted me to the gate.  We three, Jai, myself 

and Padmini left for home happily in an auto.

*****

" The real stage for your dance

is my heart "

*

ஏதிலார்  போலப்  பொதுநோக்கு  நோக்குதல் 

காதலார்  கண்ணே  உள .

                                                                திருக்குறள் - 1099

To look like strangers in public,

It is common with the lovers

*

A Love Story (Eight)

by Prabhavathi Jai

 Happy to receive,

More happy to give,

It is very peculiar in love .

EIGHT
 Hearing the noise, the in-charge of the Home came out.
Seeing Jai, she smiled and welcomed him,
" How are you Jai ? Who is this girl?  
I wish you a very Happy Birth day 
and many happy returns of the day."         

  
" Thank you, Madam. 
She is Prabhavathi studying in College
and her house is near my hostel. Good girl. 
This donation for the Home is from her", 
Jai handed over a draft.

   
" Thank you, Prabha. Come in." 
Madam called us inside her office.
"Wait I'll come back shortly." She left us alone.
    
" Jai, You never told me to-day is your Birth day. 
The draft........"
" I am not a very big man to celebrate lavishly. 
To-day you are with me, Prabha. 
This is enough and I'm very happy.  
What else I want ?  On this day, 
I usually come here and spend time with these children.
 I presented the draft on your behalf. "

I was not able to argue with him.
He was special in his own way. 
Good, kind, helping .............
Madam came back and gave some sweet to both of us.  
She put jasmine flower on my hair 
and thilak on my forehead, wishing all well in my life. 
" You look very beautiful.  
Jai is also a very good boy.  
Both of you should live happily." 
I really felt very happy and shy, throwing an oblique 
look on Jai, who was looking at me and smiling.

              
Before leaving the place, 
 we spent more time with the inmates
 playing happily with the children  
and having our meals  with them.
 I entered hesitatingly but left the place 
reluctantly with heavy  heart.While returning Jai remarked, 
" to-day my Queen looks very beautiful and wonderful". 
 I felt elated and held his hand tightly and fondly.

             
 We went to nearby Marudamalai Murugan Temple 
and prayed for our happy union.  
The Lord looking at us with his usual smile. 
Just then I saw a twinkle in the eyes of the Lord.  
I prayed again , "Lord, please don't test us. 
We, the human beings are fallible. 
Pardon us for any of our known or unknown mistakes."  
We came out and sat on the steps of the temple in a corner.
 I closed my eyes resting my head on 
Jai's shoulders with peace in my heart.

 Murugan Temple Marudamalai Coimbatore

              After some time, we left the place and reached 
Botanical Garden near the Agricultural University.  
We were roaming around the park merrily
discussing many happy things.  

I removed my sandals and  went  for a face wash.
A big thorn pricked my foot deeply.  
I was crying in pain, "Jai, thorn has pricked my leg." 
I could not walk. Jai rushed to me, 
lifted and carried me like a child to a  nearby bench in the park. 
He made me to lie down. He kept my leg on his
lap and slowly removed the thorn with care and affection.  
I could see the agony on his face 
while I was having the pain during 
the process of removal of the thorn.
Even a small problem for me, Jai was not able to bear.

After a while every thing became all right.
 " Jai, I'm very happy to-day. Thank you."   
Then I removed the ring from my
finger and put it on Jai's finger." 
This is  my gift for your Birth day. Please accept."
        " Very Good. I'm accepting. 
But what will you tell in your house. Lost ?
No, for my sake, My darling should never tell any lie. 
Let it be on your finger.
I will take it at appropriate time. OK ? "   
He put back the ring on my finger.

" Why can't you  give me a costly 
and better birth day gift.   
Your love, yourself  ......
As a token now.....",  Jai smiled.   
I understood.  
I gave him a long and affectionate kiss.  
We remained there  happily for a long time
 and I went home reluctantly in the evening .

When I was in hospital for high fever, 
Jai was there attending me day and night
 for three days even without proper food  
and place to sleep.  
He refused to leave me and go. 
Even my parents were not aware of the fact.

When I recovered my sister, Padmini 
and the Doctor told me.  
Jai was looking sick. 
I embraced him and wept loudly. 
Seeing me OK, Jai was  very happy.
" Are you all right,  my Prabha?  
Don't worry, take rest, I'll take care."
He was pressing my feet affectionately with tears in his eyes.

HE IS MY JAI, ONLY FOR ME.
I AM HIS PRABHAVATHI, ONLY  FOR JAI .

I remembered the tamil song:
" உன் கண்ணில்  நீர்  வழிந்தால் 
என்  நெஞ்சில் உதிரம் கொட்டுதடி"
meaning
When I see the tears in her eyes
My heart bleeds heavily.
It was always true  with my Jai. 

*****

For lovers it is impossible
to tolerate even a small
trouble for others.
Love means sacrifice.

pj

*

செறாஅச் சிறுசொல்லும்  செற்றார்போல் நோக்கும் 
உறாஅர்  போன்று  உற்றார்  குறிப்பு .
                                                             - திருக்குறள்  :1097.
Words with false hate and look with projected anger
are the symptoms of her heart full of hidden love
*

A Love Story (Seven)

by Prabhavathi Jai

Love with Charity & Charity with Love
Matter of Feelings and attitude

*
SEVEN
One day Jai informed me, " tomorrow we will go to a 
special place. Will you come with me?
" Sure. Where to? " I asked him.
" You will come to know tomorrow. But I know you will like
the place," Jai declined to reveal.

Next day, Jai took me to a place in an auto. 
We got down from the auto and I saw, 
to my surprise, it was an orphanage, 
Home for Orphans and Destitute Women. 
" What Jai is doing here !?
I asked him, " why we have come here?"
Jai told, " to admit you "
                 " when you are there, why should I get admitted here?",
I asked him.
" Are you sure, if I am not there, 
you will come here?" Jai asked.
" Why?" I asked Jai.
" Nothing, just like that." he replied.



 (Then, I was not knowing that I will be a part and parcel 

of this Home in the course of time. 

Fate, nobody can escape from its  clutches.

We will see this later.)

We entered the Home.  

Jai was very familiar with all staff and
inmates, especially children, who gathered around us. 

They called him with every relationship, uncle, brother,............  

One small child reached Jai and called him "appa" (father),  

not knowing the meaning of the word
 but understanding his love.  

Jai took the child  in his arms  and kissed him.

" This child lost his parents in an accident a week before,

while they were working in a construction work. 
Nobody, to look after the child.  
Somebody brought the child  and left  him here."  
Jai explained and handed over the child to me.

THE CHILD LOST HIS PARENTS

 The child holding my cheeks

in his hands called me " Amma " (Mother), 
with an happy smile.
Tears rolled down from my eyes. 

The child wiped the tears
with his hands and shaking his head not to weep.

*****

Helping the needy, is a good deed.
Especially the orphans, destitute women, sick and aged
from poor section of society are badly in need of help.
Any silent help is a welcome gesture.
Whether Jai wanted Prabha to join  with him
in doing this work or a casual visit to the orphanage?
Anyhow introduction to a good noble work.
Jai was aware of the kind softer feelings,
of his beautiful impulsive young girl.  

pj

*

அசையியற்கு  உண்டுஆண்டுஓர்  ஏவர்யான்  நோக்கப் 

 பசையினள்  பைய  நகும்.   

                                                             - Thirukkural : 1098.

She is the extreme moving beauty, 

When I humbly look at her, 

with love she will extend a mild smile.
*

    
Israeli inhuman rocket attack on Ghaza,
killing innocent school children and women,
Big brothers, US and its allies, silently watching.
Tearful Eid.
*

A Love Story (Six)

by Prabhavathi Jai

Life consists of many matches,

Some we win, some we lose,

Fairness in the play what it matters,

Fate is your partner whether you like or not.

*

SIX

Good Luck Always

Our  feelings of love, it is very hard to describe.
My mind full of his thoughts, nothing else. 

My body not cooperating with the situations and reality. 

I was in a trance.  I was very very happy in the mood. 

 I was not in my control. I always wanted to be with Jai,
 all my senses longing for his company. 

Often, I used to murmur  or chant Jai...jai....Jai... .    

I was thirsty, I know Jai only can quench my thirst.

This type of  feelings, I never experienced before in my life.  

This was new.   My whole body twisting from the tip of my toe to scalp.
No words were sufficient to describe my condition. 

Middle of night, I used get up and see outside the window, 

my lips whispering 'Jai'.
I saw him standing there. What an illusion!

' Prabha.'  Oh! Jai was really standing there outside, 

 full moon shining outside.
He whispered, ' while studying I wanted to take tea. 

I just came this side.
Have you not slept? '  What a telepathy !
' I felt that you are calling me,'  he said.

                   I loved my Jai more than my life. 
 I thought that he was part of me. A better half or (3/4).  
I never tolerated any harm to him. 

Once when we were together, a scootorist hit Jai on his already

wounded leg.  In pain, Jai  cried ,"Prabha".  
I held the scootorist by his shirt collar and went on slapping him. 
 If Jai had not held me back, 
the condition of the scootorist would have been very bad.

                   
My love to Jai was very strong.  
Even Jai was not knowing the depth until this incidence:
Jai was just joking that I did not love him. 
 He was repeatedly teasing me by narrating a scene:
" Prabha, in due course, you will marry someone selected
by your father and live happily with him.  
If it happens to me to meet you,
you will introduce me to your husband as a ' known person '.  
You will ask me, ' what will you take,sir, coffee or tea? ' 
your children will call me uncle and ask for "Jai" ice cream.
Is it correct, Prabha?"

I was upset by his repeated teasing.
 I never thought of a life without Jai.

                 " Jai, please stop it. you don't know how much I love you.
Now you will see.  I can give my life to prove it."  
Telling this I walked across the road with flowing traffic 
and speeding vehicles in Mettupalayam Road.

           
"OK Prabha, I know you love me so much. 
 I was just joking. come back, please Prabha".  
Jai was pleading for my return.
No, I proceeded further to the middle of the road.
Jai came running after me.
A heavy sound. All came to a standstill.

                " Prabha..........ha........ha........a"

Jai was crying and came running towards me.

                       It was a matter of fraction of a second.
The vehicles pulled the brakes in time.
I escaped unhurt.

The scene:  I was standing in the middle of the road 
with vehicles standing on both of my sides.
The drivers were vehemently scolding us.  
Jai rushed to me and brought me to the side of the road.  
Jai was in deep shock.
In that mood, he slapped me repeatedly. 

                      "Why did you do such a thing?", he asked me in anger.
                       " Then why did you say that I don't  love you?" I retorted.
  
My reply appeared childish to Jai.
 I was smiling, not worrying about the gravity of my deed.
Jai felt for slapping me and wiped my cheeks affectionately.
I drew  very close  to him and held his hand tightly and happily.

Jai murmured,
" I don't know what to do with this mad girl."

                  "Yes Jai, I'm mad of you, OK?", I replied.

                  "Oh God ! save me from this mad girl.
Let good sense prevail on this girl," Jai told,
raising both his hands towards the sky.

We both laughed in unison,
people not knowing the reason and
surprised at our odd behavior

*****

I stated earlier, Love is not only blind,

Lovers are also behave like mad.
It is one such instance.
Though Jai is matured, calm and steady
in his Love, Prabha shows her possessiveness
and intensity, may be young girl with immaturity
or her active nature. Hope, Jai's love will take care of her.

  pj

                                         *                                          
Uraadhavar pol solinum seraar sol
Ollai unarappadum.
                                                   - Thirukkural - 1096.

Even if she speaks differently and pose like a stranger,
It will be understood correctly as her intense love.
*

A Love Story (five)

by Prabhavathi Jai

Though the hearts are two,

Let the beats be one.
Plant the kiss on the cheeks of your dear,
You will find the heaven is not far, but near.

FIVE

" Prabha, please sing a song for me".

I was a student of Karnatak sangeeth 
and Bharat Natyam, Jai knew it.
I started singing a song in tamil :

   Kannum kannum pesiyathum unnal androe

 Inba kadhal isai padiyathum neeyo androe
Pen manathil yetri vaitha deepam allava
Oli pirakkum munne anaithal pavam allava ...

meaning,

Our eyes spoke because of you ? 
You recited the pleasant love songs ?
The lamp was lit  in the heart of the lady ?
Before the light emanates
Is it not a sin to put off the lamp ?...

I did not understand why I recited the song. Jai enjoyed it.

          "Beautiful, wonderful, very nice. please sing once more. I like it".
I repeated singing the song.

After this, Jai told me, "You study for some time.  I will sleep".
He slept on the bench. 
I sat by his side and started studying happily.  
By the time he woke up, I completed studying and revision.

Jai told, 'Because of late night studies, 
I feel sleepy during the day.
Prabha, you take the food. We will move after that ".
"Jai, you take the curd rice which I have brought".

"No Prabha I will just taste one spoon". He tasted.
 "Nice. It is very  tasty with the mango pickles. You take it now".

I ate and fed him with my hands. 
"Oh, now it is more tasty. wait, wait".
He held my hand and licked with his tongue.  
"Oh, this is the reason.
The taste is from the beautiful hands of my beautiful Prabha. 
Then, Let us eat".

We moved. " I have taken the curd rice. you take some thing.
 What will you have, Prabha?"

" Ice cream, Jai"

" OK, By taking more ice-cream, my olli Pappa (lean girl) 
will become gundu Pappa (fat girl)", Jai was making fun.

 MY JAI   

was a handsome and majestic person,

intelligent and innocent, kind and considerate, 
hardworking and relaxing, shy and stubborn, 
polite and strong, principled but lenient, 
helping and strict, a leader and a worker. 
He was sporting slightly long curly hair 
and line moustache with boyish look.  

His kind and clear eyes always searching for something.
 The horizontal wrinkles appearing on his broad forehead
indicating his deep thoughts and knowledge. 
smiling face, shapely nose, friendly attitude 
- I liked everything and I loved him from 
the core of my heart and mind.  
From the first sight, I knew that he is
 made for me - only for me.
Without him I was a nought (0).  
With him, I was everything.
He was my life's goal, attainment and ultimate.

Our love grew without any problem meeting daily on the road,
near my house,college, temple, park, supermarket etc.
 The day without seeing him was like a hell,  
I wept  without any control.

Jai, I knew, he loved me. But, he behaved with me
with utmost dignity and control.  
Even If he had made any advances, I would have
submitted myself without any hesitation.  
I had complete faith on him.  He had sublimity,
also never taken advantage of my obvious volatility to him.  
My Jai was different.  
Virtue was his forte. 
I felt safe and secure with him.

One day he met me and silently put two Gold medals
and one silver medal on my neck.  
"They are all yours, Prabha.
 It is all because of you. For meeting you, 
I went to Gym regularly both morning and evening.  
So it was very easy to win in the meet.

With the medals, you look very beautiful.  so you keep them.
Let my Maharani (Queen) wear the Medals now. 
Soon I will get a Diamond studded 
golden crown to my beauty Queen."   
I was very happy. I could not control.  
I rushed and planted a long kiss.
Jai responded.  " Have you  taken any sweet? 
Your lips taste very sweet."
                                              
My Jai won the point and the game:   

Jai  ..........1

                                                           Prabha ...... 0
                                                            (My Jai should always win !?)
                                                 

*****

True Love:
Dedication and surrendering.
No ego or arrogance but submission.
Proud to be possessive and happy to be possessed.
It is a typical mutual honor and adoration
Better one experiences it, than describing.
What else I can write ?
                                                                                                      pj  
   *     

குறிக்கொண்டு நோக்காமை அல்லால் ஒருகண்      

சிறக்கணித்தாள்  போல  நகும் .

                                                                                       - திருக்குறள் :1095.

Without looking at me directly, she will smile

with one eye partially closed

*

A Love story (Four)

by Prabhavathi Jai

Heart is judged by one's emotion,
Mind is revealed by the words and behavior.
Emotional portion of mind is generally termed as heart.
Heart, as such, does not have any cognitive responsibility.

 FOUR

No Time to Love,
And none to love,
And to love after marriage,
My horoscope does not permit.
And the stethoscope cries, as I'm old.
*
VOC park.

We were sitting on a bench under a tree.  

In his usual style, Jai started, 

"Tell me, Prabha, are you OK?"  

"Fine and happy, Jai"
   "Good". 

Suddenly an elderly person 

appeared on the scene and wished Jai
    "Namaskar, sir, How are you? 

It is long since I have seen.  Come, sir,
We will go to my place."
 We went to his nearby hut and sat on a bench.

Jai explained.
   "He is a gardener in the park. 

I regularly come here to sit and read.
That is how we got acquainted. 

He is a good man. His name is Nallamuthu"
 

" Sir, who is the Madam ?

Whether I can  get some tea for you?"
 " Nallan get tea for us.  Good tea.  

This Madam is known to me.
Her house is near my Hostel.  

Have you taken any food?   

Take this money and get tea for us. 

Good tea,  neat and clean.  You take some tiffin. "

Nallan returned after some time with tea for us. 

Really it was good tea.
" Tell me , Nallan, How is your daughter, Valli?

 When is her delivery?
What Doctor is telling?" Jai inquired about him.
           " Valli is OK sir, 

Doctor is also telling that every thing is all right, sir.

You helped me in time. 

Otherwise it would have been very serious."

 "Madam, Jai sir is a very good person. 

If he has not helped me in time,
my daughter Valli would have been no more."
    Just then I saw the gold ring  on Jai's  finger  missing.

                                              

      

Winning should be an habit.

My jai scored another point 

(40- 0)  Forty-Love.

contd........

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In love, there is no victory or defeat.
Whether you win or lose, the feelings are different.
Win to weep, lose to laugh, what a match !

Here, Jai's every innocent and general action, 

Prabha gets impressed. she likes, loves and adores him.  

                                                                                                      pj

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Yan nokkum kaalai nilan nokkum nokkakaal

Thaan nokki mella nagum.                            

                                                                                                 -  Thirukkural: 1094.     

When I look at her, she will bend her neck 

and pose as if she is looking at the floor;

When I am not seeing her, she will look at me

and extend a light  and bright smile.

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